Cold and empty

La, wouldn't it be great if I can devoid myself of all emotions? So that I can let go of anyone close to me with ease.

I don't want to feel the pain. I don't want to feel the loss. I don't want to feel the longing. I don't want to reminisce.

I just want to live life mechanically.

I don't want any emotional baggage. Emotional burden.

I don't want to care.

I want to be cold.

I want to be hard and cold.

Do you think that's possible, La?

I need to be hard and cold now.

I need to be empty.

This shall be me in this new year.

It's Muharram, La. A new year for us. It's about migration, isn't it? And a change from bad to good. From weak to strong. And I, La, shall be strong.