New year, same sadness

I was doing my work in this very late hour, in fact I was pretty deep into my work. So much to do. Yet, even in this busy moment, I was reminded of you. Suddenly you came into my mind.

And because I'm working on my laptop, instinctively I took a look at the photo that I saved on my desktop - a photo of us together, having a whale of time at a karaoke session.

Usually, I will either smile or get melancholic looking at the photo. This time, my tears fell like they have been there all along, in the dam of my eyes, just waiting for the moment when I would open the barge.

I missed you so so much, La.

I'm so sorry, La. I'm so sorry.

I hope God sends you the Al-Fatihah I recited especially for you moments ago. I hope He grants me my prayers.

I'm feeling better now as I type this out.

I'll get through this...